Setelah sekian lama menyepi, aku datang lagi, muahahaha.
Itu hari, email been having few probs. Due to faulty laptop actually. BIOS battery kinda messed up. I don't even know if you people will understand if I talk about it, so let's that be that.
So, 2015 already. And it is June now. Quite a few months it have been.
Both personal, social and academically.
But then, my topic is about marriage. Wedding.
One thing that is sure, definitely not about me. Hahaha... *gelak yang terus diam
So few days back, I received FB invitation. To a wedding.
Seeing the person who invited me, my heart skip a beat.
Yeay, the girl I've known for quite a while is getting married to my ex-boyfriend.
Truth to be told, I was a bit upset. But then, I manage to gather myself and be sincerely happy about it.
What people say? They have a long fate seeing that they are still together after all this time. *jodoh panjang
We chatted through FB where we talked about our past time. She said that she was sorry and so did I.
Well, we had quite a ruckus back then.
Kay, enough about her. Now let's talk about the man.
The reason I'm posting here is because I personally feel that things between us were still not done yet.
We had a really bad, terrible, horrible relation after we broke up.
We actually become friends after we broke up but then, something happened. We fought real bad.
Words coming out, terrible horrible words.
Things gone pretty bad since then. And since then, we never keep in touch with each other.
Years passed. Both of us become an adult. I realized what I did was wrong. I did try to contact him few times using FB message, saying that I am and was sorry for what I did. But I never got a reply.
And that's the thing that have been bothering me for this while.
Not be able to receive forgiveness.
Not be able to explain.
Not be able to discuss things and work things out among us, even as a friend.
Those things were left behind. It keeps hanging somewhere around us.
I don't even know what have we become now.
Long lost friend?
A great enemy?
After I am done writing this, all my guilt were written in this post. I think I am able to finally, move on.
So, here we go.
YN, even we had a really bad times among the two of us, you remained as a good memory to me. Long time have I forgiven you and forget the bad things that happen to us.
What I remembered is your smile.
How you used to console me every time I had problems.
How each time when we fight as a couple, you will gave me advises.
"Always look back at the good memories between us, memories that will made you smile."
Those are what you said to me, and trust me, I am still holding on to that.
So yes, you are a good, sweet memories of mine.
I will always cherish you and the memories we had.
And I will always remember your advises on love, study and life. That was kinda useful and practical actually, hahaha.
I thanked you, for all the memory.
And I really wish for you to be happy.
I just hope, when we will cross path someday, we will be able to look at each other face and smile, as a friend.
Truth to be told, you really are, a good friend.
Happy marriage YN.
-SM-
